7.So Much For Plan A
I'm giving up. Never gave up on anything before in my life.
Congratulations. Because of you I'm believing love is a lie. You
tell a girl the truth, that you're falling for her and she rips
out your heart, and throws it on her shelf and you never get it
back. It's too much for me (I'm giving up) Too many times I've
had to stitch up the wounds. I'm taking myself off the field.
You'll never hear me say I love you. I remember the time you
were impatiently waiting for me to kiss you. And I was nervous
cause I didn't know what you would do. Would you lean over and
use me？ Get what you wanted and dispose of me？ (Or would our
love finally be real？) Or would love finally be real？ And we'd
live together happily. Fat chance. Sometimes I still think about
you. Remember those fun times we had. And those holidays of hell
you put me through, run constantly through my head. Thank you
for rejection left under my tree. My New Year's resolution is to
never date another girl. Another girl like you. Never date
another girl like you. I'm throwing in the towel. I'm giving up.
Never again. You'll never hear me say I love you. So much for
plan A.
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